Murderer.

A little startled there, aren't you?

For my father.

I made an executive decision today.  As much as I enjoy coaching, the hours that I would need to devote to a coaching job are less than ideal.  The IST swim coach called me today and I told him I am no longer interested in the job.  It seemed like the perfect opportunity to officially enter the coaching world, but since Tim works until 4, I really don't want to start my job at 430.  My days would be spent in the house while the rest of my friends work 40 hours a week.  I officially decided I need a normal job for the sake of our relationship. Sad, but true.  

So begins the rest of the job search. I have yet to hear a decision from Sharebuilder, but I would be satisfied if I did or did not get the job.  Regardless of the outcome, I faced my fears of interviewing and feel as if I was a success in that aspect.  I'm still encountering the same problems though: what do I want to do with my life?  I remember in high school when 9th grade life skills teachers encouraged us to take test after test, which should determine where our skills lie.  They were meant to give us direction, but I was too young to seriously contemplate that direction. I was told I should be a lawyer or a teacher, two occupations that would definitely not suit me.  Then again, in college I was forced to pick a major which was meant to also guide me in my pursuit of a career.  Unfortunately, it has done nothing but confuse me more.  For some reason though, I feel like God has put my mind at ease.  I keep telling myself that I need to continue to anxiously look for jobs, but am somehow failing.  Last month I was looking religiously.  Maybe thats one of the abilities God has given me though, the ability to keep a low stress level when things seem out of my control... it was that way with college at least.  Or maybe I'm just too laid back for my own good.  I guess we'll see.  I at least feel at peace with my decision to not be a swim coach.

Alyssa, Erin and I booked tickets to Hawaii last night and I'm so excited that we'll be going in less than three weeks.  It will be a must-needed vacation and a good last-hurrah to my life as an unemployed college kid.  

I need to do something amazing.

I have this itching to do something amazing and new.  Perhaps join a swim team. Perhaps get a job.  Perhaps have the afternoons off. 

I think I'm getting antsy with working two jobs.  I'm ready for the summer to end. 

Any suggestions?

So tired...

Really, I hate working so much, but I'm unable to give up anymore of my hours or responsibilities.  I'm so tired.  Every night I get home I lay on the couch for about twenty minutes and go to sleep.  Then I wake up (still tired).  I have so much to do that I'll never get to. 

I need to go to the grocery store. 

I need to fold that last load of laundry. 

It would be nice if I would iron some of Tim's pants so he can actually wear them. 

I should clean my downstairs. 

I need to workout. 

I still need to go to work (until 10 most likely, and I started this morning at 730). Kill me now. 

The job search has been slightly disappointing.  I applied for a high school swim coaching position at Bellevue and had an interview.  In this interview, I realized I don't want to coach high school swimming, because if I did it I would need another job, and I never want to work two jobs again.  I also learned I don't respect the coach of Bellevue, so even if it was something that would workout for me, I wouldn't ever want to work with him.  It was good practice for interviewing though, seeing that I'm horrendous at that. 

"I want to cut his [beeping] nuts off."

Besides the "its a great year to be black" statement, this one is my favorite. 

Its a great time to be a liberal too, apparently. I wish I had the nerve to publicly endorse someone, and then hate on him in private. Such nerve, these democrats. 

Its a great year to be black.

This is the best thing ever.  Mainly the beginning- the end is kind of vulgar. 

diddy obama
by dollarsandsense123

Idiots.

I hate watching the news. 

Gas prices. 

People getting laid off. 

Struggling economy. 

Obama/ McCain (barf!). 

Going Green. 

Lindsey Lohan and her lesbian lover. 

I hate reading it, watching it, thinking about it and talking about it. Yes, the economy isn't wonderful, but its not HORRENDOUS either, and I'm sick of hearing about it. 

I also hate that people think they are so hip and new if they are concerned about these things. Newsflash, you're not hip, you're a follower.

I really am just sick of all the "world is going to hell and we'll never get it back" crap.